ElysianState

Hello.

I don’t think I’ve written a single piece in the last three months. It’s easy to make excuses for yourself. I think I struggle with the cognitive distortion of “always being right”. If you don’t know what that means, a cognitive distortion is a pattern of negative thinking that can lead to further negative emotions and behaviors. Always being right is exactly what it sounds like – I’ve been too used to thinking that every decision, every excuse I made was justified.

When I first started to write for this blog, I took it as a chance to explain things that I had learned to others through the blog. However, it wasn’t apparent to me at the time how hard it would be at a certain point to explain things when even I wasn’t completely versed on them. The last thing I wanted to do was to put out information that I wasn’t completely confident in, and a combination of a lack of inspiration and an increasingly heavy workload in my life caused me to take a prolonged break.

I still share the same interest in the topic as I did before. I’ve actually spent time looking in to a similar branch, sociology, as well. As I prepare to work on a research project to end the school year I’ve had more and more time to look over the topics that I’ve gone over during the year. I may have mentioned this before but I have had a lasting issue with procrastination over the last half of my life. It’s a habit that has become so natural in so many aspects of my life and yet I can’t find some time to try and fix the issue.

Part of that goes into writing for the blog. I wanted to put out posts once a week and tried so hard to stick to that schedule that sometimes it almost felt like I was forcing myself to do so-the exact opposite of what I started the blog for. I want to continue to get back into a rhythm to start posting again, and while my workload from school, sports, and work remains hard, I think that in the coming weeks I may be able to find the time I need to start writing again. However, I never want to force myself to write, either. I think that sticking to a strict schedule only negatively effects both my productivity in other fields and my mental health.

That being said, taking so much time off allowed me to come up with so many more topics to create posts about. I worked on a research proposal involving the effects of social media in relation to narcissism in adolescents and adults that I want to eventually explain, as well as a lot on mental illnesses and methods of treatment from my classes. I didn’t have much else to say today. Hopefully I’ll have some time to work again in the coming weeks.